One of the most relieving thing to do that doesn't directly harm my health is a late night's drive on long empty roads with the windows down and good company :D

I liveee(d)

Hello all :D A picture to bring the Art of Daphy back to life! My 2010 Prom nails!

So sorry for my absence. It was quite a long emo, confusing, self discovery, pre-quarter life crisis (maybe), bla bla bla phase. The things I went through, or might still be going through, is so much like what one of my favorite bloggers, sweatlee.com is in. I feel like I understand everything she writes, all her feelings and thoughts that she expressed. The situation's different but the feeling feels somewhat similar. And the comments on those emo posts show that alottt of people go through this. All I know is, right can seem wrong and wrong can seem right, that you'd suddenly not know what is right and what is wrong anymore. One can get sooo lost and down, we'd wanna rip our heart out, stab it a few times over, and try to staple it back T_T. The guilt, the misery, the confusion, the wants, the needs, the could haves, the should have beens, could really bring one to the edge of the cliff on tip toes, wait there, and decide whether or not to lean forward. T_T 

But life does go on, and the wind will push us back on our feet. And we know we have to grow up and get over ourselves, and be better than that. Hence, I'm smiling again and hopefully, everyone else that are and might go through all this be strong. Life in 2010 has been really harsh, for most people I know. But, we'll walk this road together, through the storm, whatever weather, cold or warm, Just let you know that, you're not alone, holla if you feel like you've been down the same road (Eminem 2010). >_<.

So, since I'm back, hopefully there'll be more art, happier art, and pictures. Getting my new phone in a week HOPEFULLY. So desperately need a camera. I realized I blog so much less without one! 

Wow, since I've typed so much already, I'll just leave all other things till next time lah, lol. Good night.

Love the way you lie part 2

by Rihanna & Eminem

On the first page of our story, the future seems so bright.
And this thing turned out so evil, I don’t know why I’m still surprised.
Even angels have their wicked schemes and you take death to new extremes.
But you’ll always be my hero, even though you lost your mind.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn,
But that’s alright because I like the way it hurts.
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry,
But that’s alright because I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie.
I love the way you lie.

Now this gravel in our voices, glass is shattered from the fight.
In this tug of war, you’ll always win, even when I’m right.
Cause you feed me fables from your hand,
With violent words and empty threats and it’s sick that all these battles are what keeps me satisfied.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn,
But that’s alright because I like the way it hurts.
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry,
But that’s alright because I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie.
Ohhh, I love the way you lie.

So maybe I’m a masochist
I try to run but I don’t wanna ever leave.
Til the walls are goin’ up in smoke with all our memories.

[Eminem]
This morning, you wake, a sunray hits your face
smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction
hush baby, speak softly, tell me I’ll be sorry that you
pushed me into the coffee table last night so I can push you off me
try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me
run out the room and I’ll follow you like a lost puppy
baby, without you, I’m nothing, I’m so lost, hug me
then tell me how ugly I am, but that you’ll always love me
then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the
destructive path that we’re on, two psychopaths but we
know that no matter how many knives we put in each other’s backs
that we’ll have each other’s backs, ’cause we’re that lucky
together, we move mountains, let’s not make mountains out of molehills,
you hit me twice, yeah, but who’s countin’
I may have hit you three times, I’m startin’ to lose count
but together, we’ll live forever, we found the youth fountain
our love is crazy, we’re nuts, but I refused counselin’
this house is too huge, if you move out I’ll burn all two thousand
square feet of it to the ground, ain’t shit you can do about it
with you I’m in my f–kin’ mind, without you, I’m out it

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn,
But that’s alright because I like the way it hurts.
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry,
But that’s alright because I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie.
Ohhh, I love the way you lie.
I love the way you lie.

I can't tell you what it really is, I can only tell you what it feels like, right now, it's worse than a steel knife in my windpipe. I'm huffing paint but still ain't feeling any where as fly as a G6. I'm drowning everyday in the only river I wish would dry, which actually came out of my eyes. 

F***ing emo shit. 

This is why I haven't been blogging. Sorry. Just a phase (I hope). kthxbai.

I swear my blog is not dead :)