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Leave me be.
It's easier that way.
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pleasedontmakemefeelsadandsorrythatcantbelovegivemespaceleavemetimesorryandthankyou

The Trip

She drove somewhere today. It was so last minute. Because she couldn't take it anymore.




















Where did she go to?















Familiar?


No?


Maybe you'd recognize this:















and this:















Yes. Damai beach.

Drove all the way up at almost 6pm.

Reached there at almost 7pm but the sun had set.

All there was were, dark clouds, high tides, violent waves, and angry strong wind blowing at their faces.


But it felt good. It felt so good to her. She didn't have to scream. It felt like the wind had blown away all the anger, hurt, and troubles that she couldn't let go of.

But that was only for 5 minutes.

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Toasts for Xian

Thursday night, went for a drink.




















vampire

okay, drinks, cockatils are more like it...
















With some friends
















4 friends to be exact.
















At Mojo.




















=D




















For Kee Xian's Farewell! Cos she is leaving for Penang the next day. =(




















Went pretty late due to rain, then Xian had to go to Spring to get something which she ended up not getting (swts), and it rained heavily again so we couldnt go to The Banquet where we initially wanted to go. So ended up at Mojo pretty late.




















Daling




















Elaine


Talked a lot of philosophy stuff, guys, girls, friends, life, and this sad sad sad world.

The older we get, the sadder we are. More frustration, anxiety, PAINNNNN!!!

sigh

.

Can you see?

the choices







It's just me.

She's lost again

She sat there for more than an hour...
Under the only shade where no one went to when it rained.
She thought so hard.
She felt the edge.
The furthest to where she could still feel her thoughts.
She almost lost it. She fought to think it straight...
But she couldn't.
She broke down.
She cried.
She searched for those who are true to her.
Those she had always searched for for that shoulder to cry on.
They were all there for her.
They are always there for her, even though they are far away.

She felt better.
But the problem couldn't go.
She thinks about it everytime she hears his voice.

The sun went down.
The sky darkened to night.
She prayed.
God gave her an answer.
It's up to her to find what truly makes her happy.
But she feels sorry.
Sorry that the answer isn't going to work out well for everyone.
It's the only thing that would make her happy.
She believes so.

Should she take the chance?
Or continue with the problem... And try her best to adapt to it?
Even if it would make her bleed again, and again, and again...

How long could she take it?
How long would she take it?
Is she strong enough?

She doubts it. But dares not face it.

The answer was with her long enough.
She just never faced it.
How could she?
She has never done anything so harsh.
Could she forgive herself for it?

Is it worth it?
Is happiness the most important thing?
If so, she would take the chance.
And start a new life. The one she once had.
Like a Butterfly.

She's trying.. to find THE way...

累 了...

对不起, 我就是那么的脆弱, 堕落...
又不是没给机会了...
不耐痛了.. 不想面对这种事情了...

可是... 我... 能让自己坚定吗?...

好累... 好累...

?~ ♫

*sigh*

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