Alone

Yes. I am at Starbucks again. Alone. Seems like the only place I can go to to concentrate. On my assingment that is. Really hope I can finish this in 2 days. Why else I choose Starbucks is cos it has this Chicken Mushroom pie that I LURVE so much. haha. Recently, I just have my brunch here around 12pm. Order a Java Chip Venti and a Chicken Mushroom Pie and I'm set till the evening.

Today is one of the lonely days I had not have in a very long time.
Don't get me wrong. I'm not having any problems whatsoever.
It's just., today, I just can't find anyone. Maybe this feeling gets to me because I'm always around with someone. So much so that even having lunch outside alone is a really SAD thing.

Yes. I have not been very independent in a while.

Yea so today, after my morning class, I had no one to look for cos uni friends are most prolly having class. So I had to go Spring ALONE to pay my digi bill. OMG MY DIGI BILL! My number was barred cos stingy me didnt wanna pay the bill sooner >_<. So I was blocked from all communication with other possible-hang-out-friends. wtf.
Then it was time to eat. THis is the worst part. Bf's working, friends having classes and Aure and Xiao Jiun who never failed me are not in Kuching T.T ANd my number was barred so I can't call any other old buddies..
So............ I sourly packed my stuff and headed to Starbucks ALONE, half heartedly determined to fill my tummy and finish half of my assignment.

It reminded me of the time somewhere end of last year when I was alone most of the time. Driving around and running errands. Most of the time I'll just watch a drama if I weren't out. Then when the loneliness kills, I'd call up my besties who are obviously not in Kuching. I was independent but very miserable. I don't feel thast miserable now but it is close. T.T

I can't wait till this evening till I can jump into my beloved's arms again and cling on him like I'm the koala and he's the eucalyptus tree, and watch him play his stupid game console. Somehow his presence doing something annoying is better than being left alone with no company at all >_<. lol Anyway. Maybe if I finish more than 50% of work today I may go for a drink :P It's ladies night after all. mwahaha~

Okay. Assignment time. Loves. Lucks to all. mwah!